I have really been having a small battle with my new body, it’s not really
a battle it’s more of a move in period. I have been moving in and trying
to figure out where things should go, how they should be shifted.
I have never really experienced a brand new body before so this is
a VERY new process for me.
Most people get a new body slowly over time and I got mine, 90lb
loss in 6 months, yea, fast, I know.
So anyway going with the theme of embody the goddess that you
already are. I decided that on this day,
I would dress and act in a way that I wanted to feel always.
I got up early and worked on my makeup. Gave myself a pedicure and
chose to wear this gold dress with all of the bangles. I decided I wasn’t
going to wait until the perfect moment, this seeming mundane day WAS
my perfect moment.
My husband is a trooper, he didn’t even question what was going on.
Off to the grocery store we went to buy things for our small Solar Eclipse
While at the store a lady stopped me to tell me that I was absolutely gorgeous.
I didn’t play coy, look at the ground, stammer over my words….
I looked her directly in the eyes with a huge smile and said Thank you. Receivingany kind of compliment in the past felt like someone had accidentallygave me their entire life. Like somehow they didn’t realize it was methat they were bestowing this wonderful gift. I felt insanely worthyand powerful with that thank you.
A little girl walked by me and made sure that I heard her say hello
and that I was pretty….thank you little miss, so are you!
I walked around the grocery store with my head held high, and didn’t
get embarrassed by the attention that I got…. I admittedly had a mantra on board
“I am safe, I am calm, I am a god damn goddess and I own this shit.”
Later on, I sat around the table with my family, minus one, and we ate fruit
and black bean and corn salad, and a rice dish D made. I pulled cards for
each of them. We burned the things we wanted to get rid of and talked about
and journaled all of the good things that we wanted to bring in.
We were all present.
Present in the moment of just sharing and celebrating life, being the family
that we know we are, not waiting until some fancy celebration where we
are supposed to do these things.
It was surely a nice change to all the fussy holiday things that I absolutely despise.
This whole day felt right, and just SO PERFECT.
I call into my life all things that serve my highest good.